BIRTHDAY GIRL IN NOIR || A YEAR OF GROWTH

In my previous post Luxury Vintage Workstyle Inspiration, I mentioned how hectic the semester was for me and how I successfully completed it. That, along with a slew of other factors, I believe had an impact on how I was feeling. I had no desire to do anything. In an ideal world, I’d plan my birthday shoot a month in advance, buy new outfits for the shoot, maybe for dinner, and generally be excited, but that wasn’t the case this year. Some of my followers even said things like “we can’t wait to see your birthday post,” to which I replied that I hadn’t done a shoot yet and wasn’t sure I’d be up for it before my birthday. However, plans were altered at the last minute! I had no choice than shoot.

I had great expectations at the start of the year, and I still do, because amazing things can and will happen to me before the year is up. Anyway, I set goals before the end of last year, expecting everything to fall into place at the same time, but I’m sure God was smiling and saying, “Bukky, my ways are not your ways, and you need to relax!” Sometimes we want our lives to go a certain way, but it may not be God’s plan. God knows best, he wants us to learn certain things, be patient, and trust him completely, with no backup plan. So far, so good; this year has been a year of personal growth in every manner for me. I’ve grown in every aspect of my life; I’m better at handling situations; and, in terms of my career, I’m on top of my game; I know what I want and don’t want generally, and I’ve done a lot of reflecting. This, I also believe, has been my waiting season.

I’m not going to lie: the waiting season isn’t easy but it’s all part of the process. I used to question God a lot in the beginning, cry a lot, and just be off as it was so different and difficult for me because I am so active, I always have a plan for my life, work towards my goals, things always go my way and happen for me, so having to just stay still has been extremely difficult for me, but I am doing an amazing job handling things well. My best friend called me one of those days, and I was so tired that I started crying. She said, “Cheer up, I truly wish I could give you a hug right now, and I like it when your energy is 100 percent. “She didn’t lie. I am always optimistic and usually the type of friend who reaches out or is perceived as strong, but I won’t lie, my strength failed me sometimes, but God has been letting me know he is with me. Despite all of this, I continued to share content with you guys and to show up for my people.

 One thing I like about myself is that I am very much self aware and have conversations with myself. So, I sat down one day and had a talk with myself, and I just decided to stop worrying since it doesn’t change anything, distract myself when I start to worry, to stay happy, and to trust that everything will work out wonderfully for me.

I probably wouldn’t share anything like this on here because who really cares?  I’m also the queen of keeping things to myself, but it’s been on my mind to share. It might well be a source of encouragement for someone who is also in the midst of a waiting period. We’d come out on top, and I’m hoping we’ll be able to learn. It’s critical that we pay attention and pray for the spirit of discernment. Enough of the plenty talk, let’s get down to business with the outfit and shoot *whew*.

So, since I wasn’t in the mood to shop, I decided to put on a suit set that I received for my birthday last year but had never worn. I liked the notion of wearing all black as well.

Earlier this year, I made a mood-board. My mood board consisted of a studio shoot, red roses, and an all-black ensemble. This outfit makes me feel like a grown woman, and you know how much I adore corporate looks / suits. My shoot went off without a hitch, and everything ran smoothly. The photographer also made videos of me, which made me really happy.

This blog post has now come to an end. I just want to express my gratitude to God for allowing me to live another year in excellent health, for keeping my family and friends, for giving me a huge pre-birthday wish, and for the fantastic things he has planned for me this year. Thank you for stopping by, please drop a comment, share this post and I hope to see you in my next post.

Cheers!